Blah.....

I have just been feeling a bit blah lately. Not physically, but mentally. I am not sure what it is exactly...maybe it is that Mike is working evenings now and so once the kids and I get home from school we are in the house all evening with just us. I am struggling to get out and meet my neighbors. I find myself just wanting to hide in the house where it is safe and comfortable....Ugh! Finding a time to do it, knowing that it will most likely be an awkward encounter. The one neighbor boys have come a few times and since they are older, I tend to worry the whole time they are here that they are not going to play nice with Caleb and Judah, or they will just be naughty. The oldest two are 9 and 11, and the younger two are 6 and 2. So besides the 2 year old, who wasn't here last time they visited, they are all older then my boys. They came in last time they were here to play with Caleb and Judah's toys, took a bunch of them outside and put them in the plants and then just left. I don't really have a good enough command of the language yet to feel like I can say whatever I need to, so it just feels uneasy when they are here. Oh Lord give me grace and patience!
It is in times like this when I long for the comforts of home. I long to be around people that I know, and know us. Around people that are familiar. I know this will pass, but in the meantime if you think about it please pray for me. Pray that I will be able to connect with some locals here. Pray that this place wouldn't seem so foreign. And pray that I will embrace this season of my life, being a mother of 3 small boys and feeling stuck in the house. :-)